You know sometimes the fact that I don't look sick can be really bothersome. I would love for someone to see the back spasms that I've been having all morning or maybe the nausea that I'm feeling or possibly the intense TMJ that has been exacerbated by the fibromyalgia and quite possibly even more so because my back is spasming causing me to tense up and grit my teeth thereby causing my TMJ to make me want to cry. Oh yeah, and this is all accompanied by a headache that just feels like my head is going to explode. Hmmm...maybe someone can see that walking a few feet really sets off the leg and hip pain that's been screaming for the past couple of weeks.
I don't want to complain to people so I don't (except my husband who graciously listens to my aches and pains but at least understands the back pain since he has a bad back). I also don't want people to think I can't do my job. But, there are days, like today when I so wish someone could see how awful I feel so they wouldn't think I was nuts if I just disappeared to take a nap. Or better yet went home so I could take an extra muscle relaxant and put some pain reliever gel on certain spots.
I don't want to tell people at work how awful I feel but days like today make me think I really need to start taking off whenever I can just so I can be more functional. Of course since I look like I'm fine people might question why I'm taking off and just think I'm a slacker. AAAARRRRGGGGHHHH!!!!!!!!
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